I listened to this online introductory seminar a couple months ago, then promptly forgot about it until I found my sheet of notes today. These are good questions - certainly not the only questions or even the most important questions, but good questions - to consider as I try to open my heart again.
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Where did I give my power away?
How did I abandon myself long before anyone else ever did?
How do I disappear to myself?
Old agreements...Am I still honoring my marriage vows? Have I promised to never hurt like that again?
So much better at seeing and coming under other people's needs instead of my own.
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In my core self, I believe:
I am alone. I am unworthy. I am not safe.
Men always leave...always disappoint.
A conscious, committed person can't have love? Marriage is a trap? Men can't handle or meet a woman's demands?
I must move from trying/wishing/praying for love to becoming a generator of love - becoming the source of what I wish to experience.
It's not, "What are you looking for in a man, but what do I desire most within my relationship? What do I want to contribute to the relationship? To the universe?"
How do I need to grow myself...who do I need to be to create this relationship for myself?
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